Just days before my 21st, I came across a photograph that triggered so many memories, some very clearly replayed in my mind, some which were faint but either ways, they add up to a life that I had lived and silently left behind to say the least.
Immediately, the first remark that I hear form one of my parent was that I was so much better when I was in that particular picture and ironically, I had a very different and infact, the very opposite strand of thought running in my mind- The fact that I think of myself much more positively now and in other words, more aware about how my surroundings and how things are around me currently.
Immediately, the first remark that I hear form one of my parent was that I was so much better when I was in that particular picture and ironically, I had a very different and infact, the very opposite strand of thought running in my mind- The fact that I think of myself much more positively now and in other words, more aware about how my surroundings and how things are around me currently.
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| GYAN BHARATI SCHOOL third standard BATCH 2000-2001 |
Unfortunately, my parents think that the same level of so-called awareness has taken away my innocence.
(With all respect) They think that the girl who would be so happy to do all their work back then , now does not bother to do even half! They see all the 'going down the drain' changes in me and I think, the knowledge that I have gathered owing to a change in the surroundings, my college life, the course I am pursuing and the various other interests that have only made me in tune with the times and infact, meeting several kinds of people that I have come across at certain points of time who have expectedly or unexpectedly managed to contribute peculiar insights and lessons in my life in their own ways, whether a small token or big package have only made me a much better and infact, a mature being in love with the intricacies of life.
A person I aspired to be and infact, I only seek more in the times to come! While growing up, I always wanted to reclaim the happiness that I thought, I had lost somewhere,
I was desperate to reclaim my right to choose that I found was mine yet was never allowed to make,
I was hell bent on reclaiming my way of life, my way of living and my own self in the multiple identities of life in the multifaceted societies and so today, I see a change that I ought to bring in ME and eventhough, my parents don't see it that way, yet I am sure, I have grown as a person, for the better!
Carefree, my days? They never will be, because I aspire for the unknown and the dreams that limmer with the pause to remember the reclaimer!
