The ruffled letter

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To 2014,

With sheer love and 'only cheerful' memories,
(you know that's not true!)

I shiver as I confess this. Not just from the biting December cold. I am in love. 

Before you get any ideas, my dear, let me clear it once and for all!

It has been you! It has been you, all the way! 

Yes, you gave me a lot of heartbreaks, but you also gave me beautiful souls and bountiful selves.

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You provided me with lovely trips that I always wanted to go on. You made solo travel happen. 

You gave me experiences that I never imagined I could manage. You gave me a cushion to cry and vent out when I had lost a part of myself. The dates on the ruffled calender whispered that you were looking over me but I could not understand, why you never let me make any plans.

Suddenly things happened. Work, friends, friendships, you name it and each morning, gave me shocks and surprises. 

You, my dear, were exceptionally a pain when you made me work without a break. 

I know, you prepared me for what lay ahead. But, those were my sulky days and you gave me your shoulders. 

I knew my life's a waiting game. Ultimately and untimely, things changed. 

You gave me a fairytale's beginning for which I may not see the end. Yet, I was mesmerised. You hooked me up with yourself. And now as you are taking me along, will you promise to standby?

Another year to my age and with that 2015 lies ahead with new hopes and old expectations.

Can we share stories, stories and more stories? 

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Yours lovingly and fully in awe, 

Merry Xmas and A Very Happy New Year :)

P.S: Shhhh...don't give me silences. Time to talk over a cup of filter coffee. Right?

LOWLing around!

Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. 

Well, that's how simple are stories of coffees, walks and talks. That's how unbelievable are those times of realizing how cranky one can be with only a few. That's one beautiful confusion that leaves one wanting for more.

Co-incidence is the word.
Going with the flow, I realised it long back.
A lot to say, plenty to blabber, and yet you feel completely comfortable to open up,
an assurance that no judgements will be passed;
no assessments will be done;
wading through levels of understanding, and yet you remain the same; of course, much lighter.

Number of days doesn't matter, decades of knowing each other still might not work.
Space is what matters, and its not taken, its given,

Pagli Journo!  Psycho!
Laugh. Cry. Overreact. Drama Queen. Anger. Patience. Stop overthinking!
Reflect yourself all through is what that company always says!

Woman! What are you talking about? Have you lost your senses or are in a trans-state?
Haha! LOWL!!
And with it, you have completely lost it you might say now, or start to wonder what's wrong with "Bharat ki Janta"!

No no, wait! Listen to the rest of the ______ (whatever you want to call it), I continue!

So, yes, time flew by quickly, there was so much to say and yet so much remained understood.
What do you call it as? A relationship of completeness with one's soul? Really?
No hi-fi stuff, please! 

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So, finally, an evening where you know you have nailed it!

Silence broken. Simple Baat. High on Bakwaas!
Coming back is a promise, but you realise how tough it is?
Missing those times is mutual. Read my face and mind, and you will realise, certain other pieces of puzzle remain.

Never thought, addiction is going to be my way of life, 
It really is the matter!

Lost to the sounds of the engine, to another city, to another life, to another being, you'll be,
My Happiness is exceptional for the future that holds you dear, 
But what tatters me is to think, you will be gone away, and that's the way it has been with me, always!

I wish, a crystal would tell me why is it so?
Why do I have to give up on my walks and my dear talks?
A brewed coffee will always be waiting;
won't  tell you to re-consider, 
I know, it's not in your hands, 
I only wish you the best, 
Sure, there will be plenty of pretty walks awaiting your hand,
amazing chatter boxes, 
I might not be anywhere in the picture, and of course, I will be no one, 
PJ? No, not at all!

A serious thought, 

heartfelt concern, 
a great realisation,
and history will repeat a thousand times, 
and yet, I won't learn!

LOWL!




 

Cornering thoughts!

He: The world is round.
She: It has corners.
He: Still, it is round.
She: Agreed. But, I am in love with corners.
He: ??!!??!!
She: A naughty smile.

I wish, I was the 'she' in that imaginary talk from my diary. Dreams about one's life are always a part of one's growing up. This is one of them.

In general parlance, corners are places where two sides meet. I have always looked forward to meeting such edges from where I will never have to go back.

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Corners give you a sense of what is going on in the world while being a part of it. There is life in them unlike the drama that goes on in the front. Being away from the limelight, and in a quiet corner can never be a failure. They give you a chance to understand the politics of decisions while being away from the pressure to perform.
They give you a chance to look back and wonder how and why.
Talking about the metaphorical use of corners as in the conversation, yes, everybody at some point, needs these corners. So, do I. Whether to pause and think, whether to share an intimate moment, or just observe.

These days, corners have very different perceptions especially when it comes to couples. Well, what is wrong? Corners give you your own space, you define it the way you want. They give you, your much guarded privacy.

Sitting in a coffee shop, with your eye lenses on, you observe even the minutest of details. The weather, the people going by, the coffee, the partner, the phone, the postures. Everything.

The obvious question would be, does not this happen sitting at the centre also? Well, It does happen. But the experience and the extent is much greater in a tiny corner. Experience them. Value them.

Roundness of the earth is a far-fetched theory. Four corners are for real. Vote for Corners!

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Corners are immensely needed. Highly beautiful. Ultimately sane. Heartily shared.

December saga: In between 'Coffee and contemplation'

While waiting for a cup of coffee in a quiet corner of a cafe on a very close friend's birthday party, you come to realize how funnily and quickly time flies away. Decembers always give you a sense of closure to what the year has given as well as taken from you. 

There are no enough answers for both and that is where the charm of time lies. A year before, I was waiting for my graduation hat and looking forward to welcoming 2013 on a note of achieving greater heights, not just professionally but personally as well. While, the fact of having graduated was yet to sink in, time had already come to fill in application forms for higher studies. Six months into 2013, I was cribbing about how I should not have opted for further studies, and contemplating on how I could have consequently saved myself from a lot of unwanted stress. 

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2013 became a year synonymous with meeting different kinds of people, making new friends and losing touch with many others and yet it gave a lot more than it took away. Indeed, it was upsetting to not have some people around or to see good friends going away from each other but it was equally enriching to learn the circumstances that made these difficult decisions, a part of the learning process.

If the year was harsh in its treatment in some ways, it was kind in many others. If the year was full of troubles, it was full of fun moments and moments of togetherness with loved ones. If the year was a mirror of understanding patience, it was also reflective of how that same patience has limits. If the year was a testimony to pushing oneself beyond capabilities, it was also a reminder of how fate plays a tremendous role. If the year was a roller-coaster ride, it was a ride worth remembering. If the year was full of expectations, it gave the courage to live with disappointments. If the year was full of useless banter, it gave a lesson on how to deal with one's inner thoughts and emotions. If the year was full of mind boggling activities, it gave some tears and moments for silent contemplation. This, being one of them. 

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Meanwhile, my friends tease me on the silence that envelops 'in between'. This, 'in between' moment just adds on to the numerous others that have come, stayed and left me with several invaluable realizations. Among these realizations, I realize the air envelops in the smell of my cold coffee. I get back to my friends and the coffee, in the hope that these reflective 'in betweens' remain, December or no December!