Overdose!

There are many things in life whose overdose does not make you upset but does not generate happiness either. They bring a smile that are more stupid and sheepish than particularly lovable and you wonder if thats the case with other people too. After all, you are not supposed to go through all of it alone!

In the beginning, it could be taken as just a frame of mind where the brain automatically tends to reproduce what we are thinking and wanting to think about. Constantly, a kind of filtering that happens where one goes on hearing and seeing things that consciously become a part of the person's environment because that is what the person has been thinking and deliberating about for much of the day.

But when those initial coincidences turn into everyday realities that become a part of your environment, of your life to such an extent that even without thinking about that particular thing, person etc, you are exposed to incidences that urge you to start thinking all over again then there is really something wrong!

No matter, how hard you try to ignore and stop telling yourself that everything is just an illusion and work of your uncontrolled imagination but too many signals, too many so called coincidences and too many instances just make you feel terrible and helpless because neither you can acknowledge those feelings nor you can deny them, neither you can confide it nor you can hide it!

Overdose of particular incidents and places, names, connotations and references over a period of time just hint at something which is not only hard to define but even more complicated to understand. When everything in a nutshell just takes you back to memories and filmy style flashbacks, you don't really know how to act and react. No associations of good and bad count because overdose just makes your jaw drop, wonder and feel....nothing more, nothing less!! Period.

The times that are hard to forget………..

DEAR LIFE!

THANK YOU! These two words together define your importance that has made me what I am today……. What I have got today………what I have lost and still moved on with a smile……..a lot of things that are hard to resist……definitely……these were and are times that are hard to forget!

Few days after I was born, I left my native place to come to New Delhi and it is been 20 years now that I have lived here.  I cherish those moments when I used to travel in trains during peak summers to reach south of India in the vacations…memories that have become hard to forget! I used to play with my cousins, visit distant relatives and enjoy royal treatment in the name of ‘Delhi ’ (yeah ! Trust me, Delhi used to or in my case still holds an equal footing as to the Americas). The laughter, those cries, those jealousies, those gifts that surprised, those blessings that remain are memories that are hard to forget! I grew up meeting people and making friends, sharing my life, that is, you with them, listening to their stories, creating new ones that are hard to forget. The feelings of accomplishment, awards and appreciation through school years, the teachers under whom, there are special times spent are beautiful memories that are hard to forget. The dreams of pursuing success and the entry into College went hand in hand and the wonderful time that went by, are definitely hard to forget! An unexpected trip with friends from College to an Ashram in Rishikesh changed the way I perceived relationships and that gave me an unexplored angle of myself that is hard to forget.  I started believing more in myself and a mystique power of the Almighty that continues to pave the way of my future…..times that are hard to forget!  For, a Journey that’s just reached a milestone of 20, hoping and wishing for more and more times that are just hard to believe and forget.