'I tell you, these kids!'

Come home kids! Taken: Jazzy J, Deepavali, 2012

They don't talk if they are angry with each other. They fight over TV shows. They sulk over the smallest of issues and gossip over the big. They start with their daily rant in the early mornings and continue them till night. They love to pull each others' leg and wait expectantly for my reaction. Each of them wants me to be on their side. This tug of war continues each day and every minute. 'I tell you, these kids at home'. 

Growing up! Taken: Jazzy J, July 2013

They love to make me do things. They talk to me about maturity and show nothing of the same when necessary. These kids at home blow up issues and see everything from one perspective; which is their way of seeing. They give me scores of reasons to shout and then complain how I have changed over time. They want to know everything and when I start telling them everything, they drift away to other "important" stuff. 'I tell you, these kids'.

Sometime dark, sometimes light! Taken: Jazzy J, July 2013

They make me feel wanted one moment and act as strangers the very next. They think of me as a grown up  when they want to and then make a mockery out of my grown up life. These kids simply put the words in my mouth and then enjoy rolling the strings. They seem to love waking me up in the middle of a nap to ask for a random number. They are head over heels in love with the flocking guests but don't like their everyday neighbors. They give me some reasons to smile and plenty of reasons to imagine Hitler personified. 'I tell you, these kids'.

And before, I know or can say anything, time passes away and they grow up in front of me. I can only cherish those memories and they see shades of themselves in me. 26 years of togetherness is a wonder and the yield is me. 

Meet the kids! :) Taken: Jazzy J, July 201

 'I tell you, these kids', are my Amma and Appa (Mom and Dad) who happen to see me grow up each day while, I happen to see them grow the other way. 

And there comes Nature!

Nature allows you to see

What is not visible,

It allows you to feel,

What lies in its depths,

Whether mud, silt or the mighty picturesque clouds.

Nature allows you to walk

And follow your own footsteps,

It allows you to experience

Your life in your own way,

Where your dreams, your passion, your wishes,

Your hopes and your longingness

Find resonance and peace

Peace that’s long overdue!

With the nature too awaiting completeness

Like you and me

Comes the roaring thought of happiness in being incomplete,

Just like the waters of the sea,

And then comes a sort of peace

That’s indeed long overdue!

 

Of so-called mediocre milestones and special feelings!

Every relationship has its share of ups and downs and in fact the relationship in itself could mean nothing important to the people/person concerned but during its journey, they reach some milestones, important or mindless is for them to make sense of. 

One such is a milestone of time spent knowing or trying to know a complete stranger who makes you feel weak in the knees and yet you feel all the more special. 

The moments- good or otherwise become a thread to mediocre milestones of dates. Mediocre, is the word when the special feelings only end up becoming just another thing for the people concerned. What are those milestones worth, when they just become another day, another number?

Yet, those very milestones mark a beginning that means the world with hopes of a future without endings. So, treasuring those moments, the entire journey, the so-called mediocre milestones, become imminent to the story of You and Me!

"Yeh shaam jab bhi aayegi,

  Tum humko yaad aaoge!

  

   Ajeeb dastaan hain yeh

   kahan shuru kahan khatam

   yeh manzile hain kaunsi

   na woh samajh sakey na hum!"

UNDER THE SKY!

IF ONLY, DREAMS WERE TRUE,

IF ONLY, STARS FELL ON EARTH,

IF ONLY, THE EVENING BREEZE MEANT YOUR COMING,

IF ONLY, PLACES MEANT LIVING,

HOW BEAUTIFUL, LIFE WOULD BE UNDER THE SKY!

IF ONLY, YOU LOVED ME,

IF ONLY, RAIN MEANT YOUR TOUCH,

IF ONLY, YOUR DIMPLED SMILES WERE FOR ME,

IF ONLY, WE WERE NOT APART LIKE THE SUN AND THE MOON,

HOW LOVELY, LIFE WOULD BE UNDER THE SKY!

 

EVEN IF HAD DISAGREEMENTS,

IF ONLY, YOU TRIED CROONING ME WITH YOUR AFFECTIONATE EYES,

IF ONLY, YOU EXPRESSED THROUGH HUGS AND KISSES,

A WORLD AWAY FORM ‘SORRYs, THANKYOUs AND PLEASE’ COULD BE LIVED FOREVER,

IF ONLY, DISTANCES DID NOT MATTER…

HOW WONDERFUL, LIFE WOULD BE UNDER THE SKY!

IF ONLY, WE COULD BOTH UNDERSTAND

EACH OTHER’S HEART AND THEIR RHYTHMS

IF ONLY, WE COULD STAND BY EACH OTHER

IN HAPPINESS AND IN PAIN, IN STRUGGLES AND SUCCESSES

HOW DRAMATIC YET ‘FULL OF US’, LIFE WOULD BE UNDER THE SKY! :) :)

OFF HEARTBREAKS AND HARDSHIPS!

OH YES! The month of May is here and with it the lingering question of "may or may not be"! 

This particular confusion lane starts with a broken heart and the hardest of the hard struggles that it ensues. Ofcourse, no way, we can belittle the pain and the trauma of losing a beloved or/and losing out on love, but it is important in a situation where emotions run wild and reason seems to betray trust and faithfulness, one should not altogether go with guns blazing on the poor love!

 

Imagine, only a few days back, you only called love, the most amazing and the most awesome feeling in the world, and now, just because, the loved person went on ahead with life, you blame the feeling of love for it? Love felt so good when you awarded it with beautiful words and phrases, and now, suddenly, a turnaround which compels it to ask "Why this Kolaveri?"

Its hard to contemplate at the beginning but the fact remains that you learn from your mistakes and they are like your shadows that do not leave you unless you move over them!

Agreed, that your lover did not turn out to be the perfect one, but that does not give a right to blame love for it, afterall, you only wanted to fall in love and in love with the idea of love. You only built your expectations too early and too fast without realising what it could mean for the future! 

All this might seem a bit harsh, but its time, we realize that blaming others, whether people or feelings can never work and repenting after problems have occurred does only lead to another struggle. I might be no one to comment on others life, but seeing this all around me, just leaves me aghast!

तो पागल हैं हम सब- ALL BECAUSE OF YOU MY 'sometimes' DEAR LOVE and 'often' NOT-SO-DEAR LOVE!!

Wish, I had wings!

Well, so many times, eyes await this dream of having wings to come true, 

sometimes in awe and sometimes in rue,

Life feels unfamiliar, either in wonder or crashes like never before,

moments, similar pass through, with eyes sore!

Meanwhile, few others seem to join in the queue,

yet, you keen to continue,

just seeking those golden wings,

to add to the chiming rings

Give me those wings!

that love the sweet smell

Remembering the Reclaimer!

Just days before my 21st, I came across a photograph that triggered so many memories, some very clearly replayed in my mind, some which were faint but either ways, they add up to a life that I had lived and silently left behind to say the least. 

Immediately, the first remark that I hear form one of my parent was that I was so much better when I was in that particular picture and ironically, I had a very different and infact, the very opposite strand of thought running in my mind- The fact that I think of myself much more positively now and in other words, more aware about how my surroundings and how things are around me currently. 

GYAN BHARATI SCHOOL third standard BATCH 2000-2001

Unfortunately, my parents think that the same level of so-called awareness has taken away my innocence.

(With all respect) They think that the girl who would be so happy to do all their work back then , now does not bother to do even half! They see all the 'going down the drain' changes in me and I think, the knowledge that I have gathered owing to a change in the surroundings, my college life, the course I am pursuing and the various other interests that have only made me in tune with the times and infact, meeting several kinds of people that I have come across at certain points of time who have expectedly or unexpectedly managed to contribute peculiar insights and lessons in my life in their own ways, whether a small token or big package have only made me a much better and infact, a mature being in love with the intricacies of life. 

 

A person I aspired to be and infact, I only seek more in the times to come! While growing up, I always wanted to reclaim the happiness that I thought, I had lost somewhere,

I was desperate to reclaim my right to choose that I found was mine yet was never allowed to make,

I was hell bent on reclaiming my way of life, my way of living and my own self in the multiple identities of life in the multifaceted societies and so today, I see a change that I ought to bring in ME and eventhough, my parents don't see it that way, yet I am sure, I have grown as a person, for the better!

Carefree, my days? They never will be, because I aspire for the unknown and the dreams that limmer with the pause to remember the reclaimer!